The life of HuDaNERDY!★

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2012-02-03T01:37:00.002+08:00

My life is a little off right now. I am not sure where I am nor where I am going. Apart from the fact that I need to back to my secondary school tomorrow and also that I am continuing my academic career at Republic Poly, I am unsure an going to do that, emotionally.

What a turmoil it has been? Everyone is feeling like crap. I was feeling much happier and living life 2 days ago till a massive bomb fell from heaven and told me to wake up. I know, it sounds a little morbid that I included Bomb and Heaven in the same sentence. Now, I need to get sleeping.

2012-01-26T13:19:00.002+08:00

bucketlistme.blogspot.com

I made a new blog, the day before. I know it is almost impossible to handle two blogs when you are not such an avid blogger. But it's worth the try.

Long time

2011-11-29T15:01:00.001+08:00

I lost track of time.

The last time I saw my sister was, very long ago.

Now, the conversations that we have as a family excludes her existence.

Yeah, pretty dramatic stuff. But...

When my aunt brought up the topic of who getting which room, after my eldest move out, it did not include Kak Nur.

Every night, the last one to reach to house has to lock the doors. I have been coming home late this school holiday and is always the one to lock the doors. It use to feel awkward locking the doors because there was someone still missing in the house. But now, unfortunately, it is not any more for me.

I don't mean that she is forgotten but I think I am, unfortunately, getting use to her not being around.

Her name is mentioned once or twice in this household but only if anyone goes on nostalgia mode.

Funny how the feeling of missing her is slowly wearing off.

But still, I can see the people around here miss her.

Kind of sad that she left without saying goodbye.

And people are already talking.

2011-11-27T02:08:00.001+08:00

And also a few from the hotel.

Prom

2011-11-27T01:57:00.001+08:00

I had a amazing time during prom. But I had a huge wardrobe malfunction. Yes, I may sound like a brat but I really did. And now, it's caught in all the pictures that would stay with me for the rest of my life.

Pretty embarrassing. Priority now, get a new bra. HAHA. yeah. Even so, I am going to just brush it off and post a few pictures of the awesome night.

modem

2011-11-27T01:43:00.001+08:00

Having problems with the Mio Home Internet connection.

Ah, my laptop's internet connection is currently running from my phone and is surprisingly, very fast.

Amazing.

"Things that don't kill you will only make you stronger."

Gratitude towards Allah.

2011-11-27T00:32:00.001+08:00

It's beyond obvious of how negative I have been about my life. Even so, I would never disagree on how lucky I have been. Well, won't really give kudos to mother nature for the high point but more over to Allah who have taking care of me from the start. I recently read a book called the "The Secrets", while Dalia was doing her hair in the salon. I am pretty sure many have heard or read it (was at the top of New York Times Best Selling list for consecutive 146 weeks). The book pretty much devoted in making the reader believe on his own dreams and "manifesting" it. Ask, believe, receive. There was somewhere in the book that mentioned that if you have full believe of what you want and also feeling gratitude of what you have now, the universe would make that dream happen for you.

Sceptical? Me too.

But with the amount of hits it had already got, it's kind of hard to not believe it. But still, it is obscene to believe that the incidents/accident that have occurred in one's life is due to their own thoughts. I decided to give it a try.

I wanted this myopia of mine to go away and I was giving it only 2 days. Heyhey, 2 days have past and I still do have Myopia. The 2 days included not wearing my glasses, make-believing that had perfect eyesight and also thanking Allah for allowing me to see.

Fine, I was sceptical from the start. So, probably that is why the "test" didn't really have magnificent results. But one thing I can definitely take away from this experience is to remember "gratitude". When I was still a small kid, Mum would also remind me to be thankful for what I have. Along the way, growing up, I forgot how to. Yes, I never forget my manners of saying thank you after the cashier hand me the receipt or when someone helped me in something but I did forgot to pray.

Growing up, Mum said that we pray to show gratitude to Allah s.w.t. At this point of time, I still have a lot of questions about life. :S Should have attended religious class instead of skipping it all the time. Oh, and tomorrow is the start of a new year in the Islamic Calender.

let's be strong.

2011-11-13T02:35:00.001+08:00

How angst can a girl get?

:S keep surviving. Living in a first world, not third.

Be thankful.

OH WELL.

2011-01-21T02:14:00.000+08:00

It has been fun to have started blogging again.

But it hurts my heart to admit I am not ready for O levels.

I have to get serious.

Though not much read my blog.

I really have to go on hiatus.

Blogging unfortunately is cutting down my productivity level towards my studies cause I am constantly distracted. No, not the fault of blogging, it's just me.

Have fun my other dear bloggers.

And have an awesome life.

It's a wheel.

swelling of my conjunctiva

2011-01-18T18:57:00.002+08:00

In my last post, I mentioned I wanted to not sleep to complete my homework.

Well, that certainly did not happen.

My eyes were in pain and its started turning bloodshot red at midnight.

Mum told me to sleep, but I was sleepy myself so I slept.

...............................

Started a new topic on Biology this week and it was on our eyes - can there be anymore of a perfect timing-

-By the way, our class is split into two and I belonged to the weaker half. who cares cause I got a the better teacher from both of our Biology Teachers. The awesome-er who actually jokes well and is so much more organized. :D and I really hope and I won't have to drop to Combine Biology. I WANT TO BECOME A DOCTOR WHEN I GROW UP AND I CAN'T DO THAT IF I DON'T STAY IN PURE BIO.-

So i asked my awesome bio teacher, Ms Low and she said that my eyes are like so because it is possible that my conjunctiva is swelling. I asked her how she knows and she said.... "My brother is a doctor and my mum is working in the optic sector."

Ahhh, my awesome biology teacher just became my second private doctor, since she knows everything.

huh.

2011-01-15T23:54:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so blardy tired.

got home at 10 pm from the Esplanade.

was with nadiah, dina, putri, syafiq, iman, dalia and regine.

Celebrated by birthday.

I have tons of homework to complete this weekend.

one day gone already.

3rd sister is going to pull me to town tomorrow.

so, I am very much dead.

the only way I am going to complete everything is if I don't sleep.

huh.

let my muscles deteriorate.

let cell building and replenishing pause for the weekend.

I am too busy sleep.

ciao.

the awesome.

2011-01-14T22:36:00.004+08:00

yeah, she is sort of my favourite.

on par with Channel Iman and Heidi. :)

wee! go Karlie Kloss.

sis kind of annoyed that I blab about her a whole lot.

picnik.

2011-01-09T01:52:00.002+08:00

when a teen discover picnik,

they edit.

p.s.only reserved for people who are stuck in a rut and have nothing to do OR.OR(love barney stinson) somewhat creative.

yeah, yeah. I have a laptop running on XP.

CHECK.

2011-01-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

CHECK.

FROM MOM AND DAD.

urnray's HTC.

2011-01-07T04:21:00.001+08:00

wishlist

2011-01-01T22:48:00.007+08:00

I AM TURNING 16 THIS YEAR. WOOHOO! lol

As I've said before, surprises aren't really my kind of thing. I have no idea why. And if you ever try smashing a cake on face, I'll probably kill you when you sleep.

This just shows how different I have became since well, I know myself.

I don't mean to brag but I am pretty happy that I am turning 16.

In Singapore, that probably isn't a huge deal but hey, I what the heck.

I never really took notice of my birthday before so it surprises me that I am very excited for my 16th.

I have a wishlist in mind but it doesn't mean I want these things just given to me on my birthday. It just mean that I want it and I would probably not eat and save my money to get these stuff. Yeah, the later sounds like a cooler deal cause then, I can teach myself, again not to be spoilt.

Wishlist! :

- a casio/swatch watch.

- a bowler hat or a fedora.

I don't like a too rounded bowler hat.

- A fantasy English book and a Malay book

I need to start reading again. I got tired of textbooks and my command of both English and Malay is getting worser by the minute. I want to take French after my O's but that is not going to happen if I don't brush up these languages that I am suppose to be good at, first.

- a necklace.

anymore.... nope. lol. most of the stuff noted down aren't even stuff that I want superbly badly.

caio. 1st day 2011 is abt to end soon.

4 in th morning of 1st of Jan.

2011-01-01T04:32:00.002+08:00

watching As told by Ginger while eating milo ice cream on free cones. lol. yeah, im not studying. sue me teachers.

2011.

2011-01-01T00:04:00.002+08:00

It's 2011 my dear friends. Happy new year.

2011 in a few more hours.

2010-12-31T23:11:00.002+08:00

MY FUCK! I CAUGHT THE LAST 11:11 OF 2010. so awesome.

ok, before 2010 really ends in Singapore here, I would like to write some of my yard long speeches to those who made a mark in my 2010.

I wrote a few yesterday in FB and going to continue them here.

Dion : to Mr Dion Chan, I can't be more pleased that we are still close though we found new friends this year. I met awesome friends this year but no bond can be felt stronger by me.You are the only one I can really talk to about anything at all. Thanks for putting up with the crappy stories and horrible dramatic bimbotic complains I had. My awesome Dion, you are awesome.

Sheryl : I've heard you're fine now and not so overly dramatic about how you look. My superbly 24/7 adorable friend, I'm constantly in thought of why you are so down. Chickaa, you are gorgeous and I can't express how much I envy your determination when you are focused on your goal and you are the first one I've meet that is constantly in talk about your loved ones. You really love your family and you'll trade the whole world just to be with them. All the best for 2011, let this be your year and don't let crappy people ruin it.

Enrui: 2010 was the first year I manage to talk to you, without feeling so awkward. haha, I suddenly remembered the fish tank joke at KFC. lol. okay, it's very hard to figure out your facial expression but what the hell, when you laugh I can't help but to laugh with you. You're effing amazing I tell you.

Norah: My dear Norah Razk, I can't express to you how I much I appreciate your presence when you are there for me. You'll make me feel all cozy and down to earth like no other. You have been through a lot of drama this year and I can't promise that I would have come out of those situation in one piece like you did. My dear, you are an awesome friend to know.

Peising: I don't think I've been as close to you before this year. You have received a lot of horrible comments on you when you and Norah first started. And obviously, you guys are stronger than all of those haters ever thought you guys would be. My dearest, all the best in your future, academic and friendship wise. :)

Siti: My dear Siti, this year weren't so awesome for us. I got really apart from you and I missed every moment of being with you. My dear, I envy your strong will in keeping everything calm. You seem to take every single bad part of your life all wonderful. Your laughter never fail to cheer me up. My wonderful friend, I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU.

ribbons on feet.

2010-12-31T02:20:00.000+08:00

brithday kids.

2010-12-30T20:18:00.004+08:00

I can't help but to edit. :D It's two awesome people's birthday today. :) have an awesome day aite.

really am so mommy and daddy...

2010-12-29T13:58:00.001+08:00

unexpected turn.

2010-12-29T13:28:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was suppose to be the 2007 batch of ZHPS outing.

A lot of them backed out at the last minute leaving 4 people left.

The planner himself, Fath, got stuck at Johore Bahru. :P

Me, Nadiah, Natasha Amalina and Syafiq.

Syafiq was the only dude there.

Rain was a downer at first but it was also part of the fun we had.

Gossiped non-stop about our old mates. There was some topics that were a little sensitive, it downpoured every second we mention the words/names and will stop when we changed topics.

Awesome much.

The food was the ultimatum.

It was suppose to be potluck, well, it some how was. Syafiq brought rendang, Natasha brought hotdogs. But we made a stop to Fairprice Finest to get some more stuff.

There was some silent moments but it wasn't so awkward though.

Had an awesome time!

ok, I have to admit the sea was pretty fun.

Spent 10 mins dipping my feet there. Short time cause I refused to go down because I thought it may be boring.

But it was fun.

:D hope we can have another REAL outing, with more than just 4 people.

25th.

2010-12-27T01:13:00.006+08:00

Marisa Cristina - Forget Me Now

2010-12-27T00:37:00.001+08:00

feelings they come and they go sometimes without warning
so when were little, we all have to lose something
you say im not what your problem
oh no, stop lying to yourself [you can't contain yourself]

[PRE-CHORUS]
and learn that its no use to play with me
and im startin to think
that it turns you on
when i show i could care less
its not just to mess with you
the truth is the truth drives you crazy

[CHORUS 1]
all my loves gone
and it left all alone
and you can't say im the one anymore
like a piece of gum
you got stuck
i wound you all up
and let you down
thats why you can't forget me now

[CHORUS 2]
Forget me now
Forget me now
Forget me now
If you know whats good

Forget me now
Forget me now
Forget me now
If you know whats good

Give me a shiny gold star
I sold out too early
Cuz your the first boy
I thought might be good for me
I did the math and
I did it all so selfishly
All for myself [I should be by myself]

PRE-CHROUS
CHORUS 1

[BRIDGE]
Way to hard and
Way to fast arn't
Made to last, my friend
If I would do once again,
*UNKNOWN*
*UNKNOWN*

CHORUS 1
CHORUS 2

I think I got most of it correct. THere is a few parts i couldn't figure out.
Source(s):
The song. I transcribed it myself.

SO OLD...

2010-12-26T23:40:00.001+08:00

2010-12-26T21:38:00.006+08:00

My cousins wedding. All photos are in the fb. Btw, my 3rd and skinny sister do know how to make me feel awkward around my cousins in the 1st photo. :P

2010-12-25T03:32:00.002+08:00

I am bored to death. TV people thought it was fine to cancel out my Fave TV shows for this holiday. SO WRONG. I NEED SOMETHING TO KEEP ME AWAKE, so I can study w/o being scared. THERE IS NO EFFING COOL SHOWS.

erm... ^^

2010-12-24T00:51:00.001+08:00

CHANEL - LOVE

CHANEL PERFUME - MAKE ME PUKE.

but don't mind me, I know you like it. We have different taste. :D

bluek.

2010-12-20T21:37:00.002+08:00

Thinking about school sucks.

...

On the bright side, I've did my chemistry revision but that is the only subject I lay my brain on for the past month. The Christmas cheer is definitely louder this year, no idea why. Not such a big deal cause I don't celebrate Christmas....

I completely switched topics without realising.

Yes, school. On my first day, it would be examinations. Scary. If I fail, I am dropping to combine. I know the consequences. Just need to kick myself in the tush, better late than never. Have to start studying, -.- I say it every single time but never really do it. crap.

Christmas... Not really a topic.

ehm...

oh, going to have a primary school friends gathering soon. just for a day.

Picnic sounds really boring. I am up for a movie then a chill out and have a meal together. That would be pretty awesome.

god damn it.

2010-12-09T14:03:00.003+08:00

GOD DAMN IT.

i DON'T KNOW WHAT IS UP WITH ME

i CAN'T EVEN CONCENTRATE.

iM A FUCKING SAD EXCUSE FOR A STUDENT/HUMAN BEING.

CRAP, I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING MYSELF SOMETIMES BUT I ALWAYS GIVE IN TO MY SHORT-DESIRES.

LIKE WATCHING TV AND CONTINUING TO SLEEP.

IM NOT GOING TO PROCEED AND SCORE WELL IN LIFE WITH AN ATTITUDE LIKE THIS...

THANK YOU DIONNNN CHAN FOR BELIEVEING ME, BUT I DON'T EVEN BELIEVE IN MYSELF THAT I WOULD SUCCEED.

chopped my head off

2010-12-04T16:32:00.002+08:00

chopped my hair off.

i look, different.

happy Birthday Dina Marissa.

2010-11-28T19:21:00.003+08:00

Rushed back home for Dina's birthday.

reached home at 2. got ready and met nadiah at her place and then ciao, off we went for Bugis.

met Dina and Syafiq at 4 at Bugis Junction for our Seoul Garden Meal.

The cashier thought my 50 bucks was a hundred so we paid 50 bucks lesser, AT FIRST. He soon realised and claim it back.

The slap on the face was actually the price of each head, $30+. Someone kill me. That is really expensive Seoul Garden considering the amount of food available at Bugis Junction. _l_

Went to Haji Lane which was super boring because there was a flee market instead of the original shops.

So we left early for Orchard and met Puteri there whom was out with her "sis-in-law".

Settled down at Tripleone Somerset and surprised Dina with a Birthday cake, which I manage to hide inside my handbag. Awesome handbag. Dina did not manage to suspect a thing.

Took a bus back home at 8 cause Nadiah had a curfew which was at 9.

The ride back was pretty awesome.

Photos all in Marissa Brownie's Facebook!

DRAMA CAAAMP!!! well, sort of.

2010-11-28T18:32:00.003+08:00

Have been waiting for Drama Camp since the year started.

Well, there wasn't any in the previous year and since falling in love with the whole drama club, it was natural for me to be excited.

Sad though, some of them don't find the club interesting.

Well, that is their lost because I had a blast from the beginning.

Kudos to the organisers of the camp, We really appreciate your efforts and dedication to make it a success. Those sleepless nights before the actual camp was worth while because we really did have fun.

cut short,

we did our flags and came up with our group name C(p)ornstars.

was grouped with; khalid(skywalker), Afiq(pikachu), Elain(happy), Carol(Pink Panther) and Winston(Winnie)

Awesome people they are.

I had pink panther's head get drawn on my knee/thigh by Khalid. Pretty cute.*

then played some games and got ready for open house stuff. Actually, I can't really remember what we did but I swear it was a breathe of fresh air that we did not do the traditional EnvisageDrama games.

Next thing I know, it was barbecue. Awesome to the bomb. Did our awesome to the bomb performance for Mdm A.(wesome) cause she is leaving for a school which is giving her a superbly higher pay. haha.

Cornstar

- "north, south, east, west" with our hips

- the "talang" dance as Carol calls it (pinkpanther dance)

-"what starts with a P and ends with a O.R.N" "popcorn!!" "no, it's just Porn"

Jingglyasses and Boobypacks were as awesome too.

the former did HSM dance and the Boobypacks... :) I think there is a video of their rehearsals.

I'll post it if I could and you can see how, (ehem) awesome they were.

After the BBQ, we had the awesome water bomb.

Had 20 mins of making our awesome bombs which eventually leaked when we placed it in a garbage bin . TEAMWORK TO TRANSPORT IT TO THE BASKETBALL COURT, IT WEIGHED A TON. HORRIBLY HEAVY.

Sorry Anna, I nearly killed you.

Showered and assembled at the void deck. it was 12am.

THEN, IT WAS THE AGAIN-SO-AWESOME GHOST HUNT.

3 got injured during the water bomb and 1 had aback problem. 2 of us still fine.

2 stayed to continue barbecuing while the other 2 joined me and khalid and as a team, we managed to stay alive throughout the hunt. Fucking seniors scared the fucking hell out of those injured 2 until they cry their hearts out during the whole thing.

Game ended arnd 3.

some went to eat while most fell asleep. Star gazed for a moment with Pearllynn and Shanxian and eventually slept in our dorms.

Slept in drama room and it was fucking cold. I shivered for 15 mins non-stop when I woke up, 2 hrs later than when the drama members were suppose to assemble.

Had breakfast and got ready for open house. We did impromptu throughout.

Had a fucking awesome time. Awesome Mason did his awesome charming act throughout. :D

SWEETSIXTEENALDODANCE

2010-11-22T18:18:00.008+08:00

awesome video.

all for the www.aldo-dance.com

:D

2010-11-21T23:29:00.003+08:00

Javachipeh pleaheas!?

-can I have a Venti Java chip... :D?

green teah soye latteh pleaheas!?

-can I have a grande green tea soy latte ... :)?

*I want cold coffee. give me one?... :/*

heel. shit whore.

2010-11-21T22:51:00.002+08:00

woke up "early" for religious class.

god damn it, I can't imagine waking up for next year's religious class.

dad enroll me in this other one is tech whye.

I can't even wake up in time for the one in Bangkit. -.-

whatever, i need to learn how to be punctual anyway.

boring lesson as usual, except last week. I actually learned something last week.

this week, we all end up crowding in front of teacher, looking at her play teeter in my phone.

a lot oh short screams and "whoa" going on then.

nest year aint going to be like that anymore, full speed religious lessons.

-.-

after that, attended a wedding at the Community Club with Mum and Muhaimin.

I was shit dumb to wear 4 inches and walk all the way there.

The story ends with me convincing mum to take the cab home and buy me a new pair of shoes. :)

killing two birds with one stone.

since then, I slept.

woke up at 7 and has been online since.

Need to prepare for MB's birthday.

Puteri working so hard.

I'm... half done.

Everyone is doing separate gifts this time.

o.0

:)

2010-11-21T00:35:00.003+08:00

from www.loveyou2bits.tumblr.com

oh gosh, Christian Louboutin booties that are awesomely hot.

which I can't wear cause my legs are too stubby.

The'll just cut shrink me.

i hope it wont come out.

2010-11-20T13:05:00.001+08:00

there is a photo I saved from Sheryl's tumblr...

that I don't wish to ever post.

It has words that would make me cry, if it ever happens.

ego.

2010-11-20T12:37:00.002+08:00

I spent 2 hours laying on my bed and eating a few servings of Nasi Goreng

and finally came up with this...

"I care too much about our friendship to let you guys rely on me. I don't want to be heroic now cause I have no right to do so. I admit I played a part in this battle. Though, it's not obvious. They say let bygones be bygones. So, let the past be. They say it takes two hands two clap. So, why is both not giving in? If you care, you'll put your ego aside and do whatever it make this work. Apologising should not be hard if you really mean it, though it strips your ego. Forgiving should not be very hard, if you want to thing to end good. So are you guys at a state of mind to do so... only time can tell"

surveys ain't essays.

2010-11-19T21:53:00.002+08:00

Today was the last lesson of AEM.

like I've mentioned before.

came a little late, was waiting for Amirah, again.

reached in time for PITZAA!

ate one slice of those Pizza de France and 2 cups of coke nearly made me explode.

had to gobble down Vera's pizza and Shazirah's because they weren't going to finish it and I would die to see good food thrown. *IT'S A CURSE.

well, then we had 2 more chapters covered.

completed an AEM survey.

I wrote 2 sentences while nick and joshua wrote an essay for each qn asked.

-.-

then it was the test.

crap shit, i got 29/40.

that's 72.5 %

one more mark and i would be "happier"

By the way, my laptop's wallpaper is a picture of 5 of us at west coast.

Syafiq's face was beside mine and my lecturer just came towards me... point at his face and said..." your boyfriend right..." didn't even have time to say NOOO!! Was too flabbergasted.

humiliating.

tdy- tmr. whatever

2010-11-19T05:07:00.003+08:00

i have a test tmr... - fine, later.

last day of AEM.

woohoo.

Ms Wang is going to treat to pit-zaa ( pizza) !

I don't know what to wear. almost everything in my closet is like... *cricket.

my jeans are all in the wash...

still have a bunch more things... but i definitely won't wear them to "school".

If i wear my grey oxford shirt and brown draw-string pants, I'm going to get mocked I tell you.

some people just cannot take it.

they are too used to shorts and "vintage" tshirts.

I'll rummage my closet in a few hours.

for now, I'm going to watch my korean show till it ends, study for my test and then have a powershower, going to shampoo my hair like mad- conditioner finish, won't take responsibility!

morning rush, the risky student way.

2010-11-19T04:51:00.003+08:00

Never took the MRT in the morning before.

Today was my first.

it was 8 and there were so many people. got pissed and keep sighing at ever packed train that passed.

reached Jurong east at 8.30, i think.

waited for amira, bought some butterfly fried bun thingy and warm soya milk( they drink coffee, we drink our warm soya milk)

Keep heading to the toilet( i'm scarred) because of last night's feast at JB with family.

after almost an hr, she came.

went to library to meet shazirah and fateen.

library was open at 10. -.- what time we arrived again.

as usual singaporeans, being kiasu as we are, everyone was practically at the front of the library door, nose nearly touching the glass.

OPEN! *rushrushrush

spent 10 mins finding a seat near a plug.

and start.

presentation was at 3pm.

we started creating our powerpoint slides and virtual tour slides at 10.10

do the math, we had 5 hrs to complete everything.

rushrushrush.

playback :

"Huda! what do I do next?"

"Amirah! which part of the script are you at?"

"Shazirah! which slide are you left with?"

"Fateen! you wrote all the last pages of the script ready?"

"Vera! u did the brochure a little wrongly?"

"Sara! you had nothing to do yesterday night!?"

at 1.30pm, we left the library for our macdonals lunch at Singapore Poly.

continued in the train, hill top haven and in the library.

when it was our turned... it was awesome... then boring... then awesome...

>>>> wasnt a big shock to me tht we pulled it off, i've done it countless times.

btw, ME AND VERA WON BEST PRESENTER AWARD.

were given some toilet smelling air freshener.

look so insincere. kill me.

:)

2010-11-17T00:57:00.002+08:00

HAPPENED TO ME SOO MANY TIMES.

TSK.

awesome... ly tired

2010-11-15T23:52:00.003+08:00

It's nearly 12...

previous nights, I was up till 4.

I'm very sleepy now..

spent hours at chinatown, doing the AEM project.

then, head to nadiah's house to help her paint.

now, I'm out of words and is about to head to bed.

good night world, have sweet dreams.

:)

2010-11-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

:)

2010-11-14T23:47:00.001+08:00

alluring brits.

2010-11-13T13:38:00.003+08:00

some looks like crap.

some looks awesome.

who cares, they are British.

...

2010-11-13T13:32:00.002+08:00

:)

2010-11-13T13:15:00.002+08:00

todayibought.tumblr.com

awesome graphics.

riri

2010-11-13T13:02:00.001+08:00

...

2010-11-13T13:00:00.003+08:00

it took a counsellor to tell me this,

and i felt it since then.

My problems, are due to to external conditions.

Got to kick it out.

but then, I am a friend.

:)

2010-11-13T12:59:00.002+08:00

I HAVE THAT.

2010-11-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

have something similar.

In purple.

Never wore it out.

-.-

:)

2010-11-11T00:01:00.002+08:00

:)

2010-11-11T00:00:00.002+08:00

:)

2010-11-10T23:59:00.003+08:00

:)

2010-11-10T23:37:00.001+08:00

:)

2010-11-10T00:05:00.003+08:00

:)

2010-11-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

:)

2010-11-09T23:56:00.001+08:00

from : loveyou2bits.tumblr.com

love sheryl for blogging this.

cause, I feel so, very often these days.

:)

2010-11-09T23:51:00.002+08:00

she is fucking awesome.

:)

2010-11-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

I have a thing for rugged looking converse sneakers.

They are awesome.

but black is getting boring to me.

red might just do.

yeah.

2010-11-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

:)

2010-11-09T23:40:00.001+08:00

-.-

2010-11-09T23:37:00.001+08:00

:)

2010-10-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

whoa

2010-10-10T23:18:00.001+08:00

ANOTHER RAN AWAY DRAMA.

i just need shoes.

2010-10-07T23:53:00.005+08:00

2010-10-06T23:00:00.001+08:00

RESTRAINING FROM PUCHING UR FACE IN SCHOOL. HATED TO SINCE U STEP FOOT IN THIS SCHOOL. AND U DARE MAKE MY FRIENDS EMBARASSED. TAKE UR RICH ASS OFF MY FACE LITTLE UGLY PREFECT.

yes, i dont know u

2010-09-21T00:00:00.003+08:00

u have been such a bitch.
ur following me in twitter.
ur ignorant that im actually talking abt u.
saying tht someone change is exaggerating but im not now.
i dont know you.
we have use to have almost alike in terms of moral values and ur choices were wise, to me.
now, im disgusted by ur actions.
i dont dare to look in ur eyes because i can't believe the hatred i am feeling towards u.
this is a lot to take in for me.
im sorry if i have been cold towards u, but i really cant take it.
it may take time for me to be okay with thenow-u, but deep inside, i dont want to put up with it, i want u to change back.

raya/exam preparation

2010-09-09T00:21:00.002+08:00

Raya is round the corner, actually it's in two more days.

The house still look like a warehouse. With boxes and wires and clutter everywhere.

I have no hope of cleaning it, because I have no idea how to clean. As much I wish to, I still won't know how to.

Raya don't feel very merry this year. No idea why.

Exam is an ass. It's getting closer and I am not prepared at all.

There is probably at 90% chance I am about to fail all of my subjects.

No offence but I don't wish to take the O level papers in combine biology and chemistry.

Without pure chemistry, I won't be able to get into Medical school.

I want options here. I think I've taken to many chances. And I don't wish for me getting a pass to be a chance, have to be sure about that passing mark.

but I can't blab too much here, Pm Lee told us not to complain.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MY DEAR MUSLIM FRIENDS.

ALL THE BEST REVISING MY UNDER-16 FRIENDS.

tumblr-fied wannabe.

2010-09-02T23:28:00.002+08:00

She is hot. Dion, stop calling her a slut.

blahblahblah.

2010-09-02T23:20:00.002+08:00

Tumblr seems very cool and creative but I can't betray blogger for it. It's too harsh.

Thus, Ill try to post photos i get from tumblr or around the internet.

Photos of stars or ++.

very exhausted now.

I have yet to memorize my "Ma" script.

Yes, don't u dare make fun of me. I know it's like a made-for-huda role, being a mother like again but I really had no bloody choice. almost no other drama members have no mama oomf!

Still doubting how to say the lines.

:P

things to do for the week.

2010-09-01T16:07:00.002+08:00

I have to find a way to show the archives in this blog.

I have to still edit the layout of drama, that has been my project that i put on hiatus since last year.

I have to make a mind map for the Excretion chapter for Biology.

Have to do 2 chapters of Biology TYS

Complete the never ending worksheets i have for Chemistry

Complete my SPA chemistry worksheet. I'm in deep shit for this because we did the experiment last week but I did not record down anything. NAISE.

Study up on my A math and E math because I have feeling I am going to fail, both.

Exams are around the corner and I am toasted.

bonkers.

2010-09-01T15:58:00.004+08:00

Hot phone right?

ugh, crushed my heart in the morning when I was not able to access HTC peep.

Found out that Twitter changed it's authentication server.

Found that out two hours after i boggle my phone around.

Now, it's almost impossible to sync my phone to my outlook.

Not happy at all.

I wasted a lot of precious studying time and this means I can't sleep later at night/morning, have to cover up on the time lost.

I hope there are some sneakers bars and packets of coffee in the kitchen. my soul rescuer during the wee hours.

edits.

2010-08-31T22:45:00.002+08:00

I am still having trouble to find a way to show my blog archives in well, my blog.

So, still working on that.

I think I am going to keep a journal.

For theatre acting purposes.

Former instructor once told use to study people's reactions.

After watching Fame at Nadiah's place just now, I think I am going to continue doing so.

If it's not a journal, it's a blog.

nana wrote a song!

2010-08-29T01:27:00.003+08:00

hehe, nadiah wrote another song.

honey, I don't get the tune of the first "verse?"

But i found a chorus somewhere in there.

Nice song babe, gotta work on it still though.

hehe.

whatever.

2010-08-29T01:11:00.002+08:00

I am over that emo phase, again.

Coming out strong.

Set out my priorities already.

Studies, drama, family, friends, entertainment.

I apologise if I may sound selfish, but this is the only way that might work for me.

I am taking the hard way out.

because the easy way sucks.

I can't gamble with my grades, i'll come out dead.

It's like Russian Roulette.

one of many things I took back with me.

2010-08-26T18:09:00.004+08:00

I wanted to continue abt my life story. the one that seems like its never going to end. well, I chose to end it now. I don't want to be apart of the drama.

-I heard that u guys "break friendship". how disheartening. well, there's a saying u can't have the best of both worlds.

-I'm still confused with ur loyalty. but I won't qn it because it's your life.
its sad to find out that this week, I learnt that friends are awesomely difficult to trust or rely on. there is a minority but really, how long?

do not worry my dear nana, dion, enrui, sheryl. there is really nowhere I rather be when I am with anyone of u. for the other,it takes time for wounds to heal. I hope time would speed up and we'll be better tmr, literally. looking forward to iftar tmr with nana, dina, syafiq, zaek, buqairy,izyan and +++ not sure who else are appearing.

3rd part of w9 incidents

2010-08-25T21:50:00.002+08:00

My doubts were kept suspended and I had to ask around.

I know that you don't want to talk about it, because it hurt so bad.

but, you are my friend. I use to judge you, tremendously.

Then, I came to know you and i really cared.

You told me not to ask so I held back.

I starred into your red eyes, oh gosh how harsh it was, especially knowing that i can't do much.

I heard from a grapevine that you heard. Don't take it harshly because the story is less awful than what you have probably heard. I know her for 2 years and I was her listening ear.

seeing you cry in two days straight about two different incidents, is not cool my friend.

2nd part of w9 incidents

2010-08-25T21:42:00.002+08:00

My phone died on me while i was blogging through my phone just now.

It was maths lesson then.

2nd part...

My confusion, connecting to the 1st part. You are our friend, you are his friend. I thought we all agreed that all of us are going to try our best to not entertain him 24 hours. But, who am I too judge. Two of you have a lot in common and if i question our loyalty, it is a little too dramatic.

I think I am just over thinking this. I should not judge you, because I know the pressure you are facing with the people around you, I really don't wish to add on.

part 1 of week 9 incident.

2010-08-25T11:34:00.004+08:00

im feeling beyond confuse.

we welcomed u into our chain. but slowly u make us rust. u complained constantly but do i hv to remind u, we were fine bfore u came. when u came, we all started quarrelling n u play a part in the bloody story, somewhere, everytime. i won't take any crap anymore and i doubt the others will too. ur going to try to be nice, or you are officially gone. if u think tht we making use of u to make new friends, so tht we can get closer to ur other friends, god damn it u can't be anymore wrong. ciao short gay guy, I'm too pissed to be nice.

ancient times... really!

2010-08-13T23:25:00.005+08:00

I was particularly nostalgic on tht day. I walked past the frames on my house then suddenly saw a toddler photo of me at zoo with mum dad and 3rd sis. got a gush of nostalgic wind then i rummaged through the photo albums. found some photos of me and lil bro. the first one is me bro just got home frm the hospital. the special thing is not abt the photo( no offence bro) but the car my bro was in. MY DADS TOYOTA . I GREW UP IN THT CAR. i can still remember vomitting every time i enter.

there is a picture of a fly right?

yeah. i got distracted when i saw tht ant dragging tht dead fly. made my day. btw, i cant be any fatter or cuter while being a kid. <3>

racial harmony day, ancient history

2010-08-13T23:18:00.004+08:00

It was racial harmony day. Aryanty brought like 10 baju melayu for the chinese boys. :P so many. i brought like.... 2 ? baju kurung for the girls. I was wearing a white and pink polka dot "punjabi". hao he said i looked like curtain. -.- love the Cadburry Brothers.

I cant find class my class photos in my phone now. but it somewhere in there. I HOPE!

drama bbq, ancient history.

2010-08-13T23:07:00.008+08:00

I feel guilty for not posting any posts. though a lot has been happening. Thus gona take my time to post all the photos i have in my phone.

This was the drama bbq the holidays. It was at bby's condo. hahah! xianxian junior home! there are still more pics in my phone. gona stay there for sentimental reasons. hehe. A LOT OF REAIZLYNN'S PICTURES.

speechless.

2010-07-11T13:16:00.002+08:00

I know I am getting off track and it is very much obvious. I planned to study, which I did for a moment before. But I have been reading some of my friends blog and if I were to compare it to mine, I can officially say that I am ashamed of how I write. From now on, I would not take anything for granted and make use of every opportunity to improve my writing. Our previous Principal can brag all she wants about the horrible affects of blogging but I'm taking a plunge and typing all the way to, either the drain or an A2 for english. ( I was a little taken off guard when my report book states that my english was a a C4, to hell them!)

Im giving myself another 30 minutes to finish reading my Biology textbook on Plant Nutrition, still a little blur about the light-dependent stage and how the guard cells move.

At 2, I have to start researching on valleys and another river feature for the geography project. ( it sure is different to be the follower and not a leader. more, refreshing. haha)

At 4, I have to continue with my writing of the formulas and notes related with the mole chapter.

At 6, i have to finish all my mathematics homework which probably would take 10 pieces off my new writing pad.

At 8, i have to write a malay composition about a mystery. SUCH A TORTURE.

At 10, i have to complete my letter of proposal.

i have a few other assignments at the bottom of my school bag but I rather pretend I had no idea.

:)

2010-07-11T11:53:00.003+08:00

the last post was a little too much,
I know.

Im still mugging now.
But, much more relaxed.

What I typed the other day was very much on impulse.

Going to start on Biology soon.
The stuff on the e learning portal is much more useful than the stuff coming out of my teachers mouth. :)

......

2010-07-09T18:14:00.003+08:00

My command of english have de-proved.
I can't seem to handle any hard situation anymore.
the list goes on and on.

This semester was suppose to be a new beginning for me.
Someone who would work her ass off for what she wants.
Trust me, I'm doing the best I can.
But for some reason, nothing good is coming out of this.
Switching on this computer took a lot of guts, and typing this now,
I feel the guilt.
And for some mother fucking reason, this mother fucking acer laptop aint working well anymore.
I am so mother fucking sorry but somehow i feel like my father "computer genius" friend did something to this mother fucking junk until it turned suckish as it is now.
*sigh.
...

And my studies.
Does anyone have any mother fucking idea how hard I have worked just to see an improvement in my grades.
I try so hard but I don't seem to get it right.
It so frustrating to be in a classroom full of intelligent kids who seem to hit bull's eye every single time.
*sigh.
...

And i don't seem to care about the things i use to care about anymore.
It is hard to even say I know myself anymore.

I don't want any pity from anyone because I know this is just a phase. A phase I'm experiencing the first time, at 15. Please do not tell me to relax, because I think I received enough of those.

I have brother. He's 8. But I've seen his hardship.
School was/is hard for him. I understand that.

I never went through this before, little miss smarty pants just hit rock bottom.

I know this would be a ... "constructive" experience.
Never imagined it to be this difficult.

AND THE BLOODY ANTIBIOTIC IS NOT HELPING! I HAVE BEEN HAVING FEVER FOR ALMOST 2 HARSH WEEKS NOW, WHY CAN U JUST GIVE ME A REST. ARE "IMUNED" TO WHATEVER INFECTION I HAVE CURRENTLY.

I AM TRYING TO GO TO SCHOOL WITHOUT WORRYING ABT THE TIME TO POP PILLS IN MY MOUTH AND JUST GET EVERY SINGLE KNOWLEDGE I CAN TILL MY MID YEAR EXAMS.... and eventually. my o'levels .

entertainers

2010-06-12T16:55:00.003+08:00

watching a korean performance in KBS world currently...

a question popped out my mind while watching.

Are entertainers entertaining us or themselves?

Definitely I'm not entertained.

This korean girl look so, going to die any moment.

Sing and dance but no even with power.

And they strut cross the stage as if they are hot but we really dont care if ur trying to act sexy coz all we can see is an exaggerated walk which is like... drunkdrunk.

Turn off.

ADIOS.... ITS SUMMER.

2010-06-05T16:18:00.004+08:00

its been a few months now since my last post.

ive just been damn lazy and its has been hard to get hold of the laptop cause my two elder sisters doesn't seem to want to buy themselves their own laptops.

apart from disastrous exam results and never ending friend ship squabbles, i found a new love.

reading Blogs!

teenvogue and nylon mags are a fav right now.

and so is Dion's.

and also from Dinie and Nicole .

www.onesixtymagazine.blogspot.com

www.mycherrymagazine.com

okay... untrue.

I've been reading blogs for quite some time already and i wont really call them my new love.

Just needed some topic to type about....

THE TOPICS I HAVE OBVIOUSLY BEEN DREADING AND TRYING TO AVOID.

EXAM RESULTS AND SQUABBLES.

exam results.... boring topic.

but i must now tht i have to work hard this holiday to get my grades up cause being at the 30th position sucks. can never really swallow it. got a tutor... MY FIRST EVER TUTOR! for A math coz i got an F9.

squabbles....

personal.

dont wanna talk about it.

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obviously... reading this blog cant get u really any where to know about my life...

just follow me on twitter.

[MICRO BLOGGING IS SO MUCH MORE CONVENIENT AND IT'S BUILT IN INTO MY PHONE]

sorry....

2010-04-30T22:18:00.002+08:00

i feel guilty....

u guys have been layan-ing me

while i was on blogging hiatus

LOVE U SWEETHEARTS...

missing drama loads.

mid year exams sucks...

so does tan wee liat.

hey soul sisters!

2010-04-30T22:10:00.002+08:00

Its had been forever since i posted something.

And i doubt anyone follows anymore.

twitter took over my life.

(microblogging is much more efficient)

so did facebook

( the most easiest way to know the latest about your friends)

MYE is coming closer.

Told my parent not to have high expectations for this exams

cause i am still trying to grab hold of the subjects.

I am in love with combine and history currently.... cause those are the places i wish to be now...

but have to go JC if not ill DIE...!

=.=

starhub cable changed their channel numbers today...

fml.

bye.

gona watch glee, vampire diaries and gossip girl tonight.

before full fledge studying tmr!

wish me luck.... in studying

me and textbook are not going so well this year, not sure why.

chingay

2010-02-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

Chingay was quite a blast.

The best part is that we got to eat and slack and talk about so many kinds of things while waiting for our turn to go.... Approximately 2 to 3 hrs.

But I think going out there is the scariest.

I didn't dare to switch on the tv earlier to catch the parade on tv cause I would see myself being pathetic.

I keep forgetting the dance steps.

But of cause there were times that I hated the rehearsals. Like irritating people trying to act cute and people who clearly care more about themselves then everyone else who participating too.

I also met new people. Like

the friendly Ali Baba guy who works for the government as an architect (NO, I would not do that trick again on you. Do only one who thinks it's horny is you ali baba) Doubt going to see you around anymore.

Leslie - knew him before this but first time that I actually talked to him

Carol - First time meeting her and talking to her, so sweet

Xiang Ting - seen her around the school but nvr really acknowledge each other before

And I this thing really brought me closer to some of my seniors.

And I bet brought them closer to least expectant each other. Like Mason and Loiuse who found out that they got a lot in common( e.g. Expensive taste on clothes, high maintainance, and love the old songs) Darn it, They are sharing secrets like crazy and wont even tell me about it. FCUK does rock! They are probably the only people in drama that knows Karl Lagerfel and some other high end brands( everyone knows luxury brands[chanel] but not all know high end brands)

I never imagined myself talking so comfortably with mason before cause he looks like a rich jerk ( haha) but he actually just like any other rich good guy (haha... as if that is common). Now I know what topics to talk to him abt. Retail, music and cars. But too bad, Mason hates ferari and Lexus while I love them and he loves porche while I hate them....

Chingay rocked!

2010-02-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

Happy Pancake Day!

long time no see

2010-02-16T13:10:00.003+08:00

I have not been blogging for like .... forever.

Partly becoz i cant be bothered.

So many thing have happened.

I mean...

Chinese New Year

Valentines' Day

Birthdays(Mason.Sara Aqilah.Valenlyn.Mathew.Amira. NINI!!!)

And I probably made enemies with my Chem teacher-Mr Tay-.

me: "Lets just hope Mr Tay would not come!!!"(me telling like everyone)

thenn... he appeared out of no where.

Mr Tay: "Girl, are you waiting for a teacher!?"(with his eyes popping out)

Practically everyone who was with me outside the 3/6 classroom laughed.

Wah... Ultimate embarrassment.

and did I mention he scolded me and claim that my work is rubbish.

=.=

Worked real hard for the paper and he called it rubbish...

As if I didnt get enough of him last year for PE.

And I didnt do FANTASTICALLY for my recent homework. I bet he is like going to scold me again, in front of the whole class.

Since Suntha and Nicholas have cleaned up their act... I am going to look like a devil of the class.

Really you all. I am like an angel sent frm above.

I don't do scolding or detention okay!

Haix... I have a feeling I am going to do really really bad for my chemistry exam.

Bye bye hopes of going to ACJC.

let me enjoy my last day of holiday until i face t=my never ending punishment frm that guy.

yeah... nice week ahead.

2010-01-29T22:46:00.002+08:00

so...

i am going to have to complete my 2 weeks of both maths subjects cause all of them are counted in my CA1-.-

have to complete my malay workbk chapt 2.

have to complete my malay story book and do a review.

and tht reminds me... I did not place my malay homework at my teacher's pigeon hole. [earthquake on monday... holy shit]

erm...

have to complete my english comprehension.

Having Biology and A maths test on Mon.

Having Social Studies and E maths on Wednesday.

Having rehearsals for CNY skit on Mon, Tues and Wed.

Having Chingay rehearsals tmr.

so... this year start off good.

Full of stress and scorn tests!

:D

My hidden Angel, whoever you are, give me a bomb during the next OEL lesson.

My dear mortal... ill get u a coupon for contact lenses.

:D

Omg

2010-01-20T13:46:00.001+08:00

The dog i subconsciously drew during amaths lssn. Cool rite, the fact tht this was done SUB-CONSCIOUSLY!

Today was a good day! Thank you.

2010-01-19T22:28:00.004+08:00

So... Today was not bad at all.

Only that I started the day with a horrible tummy ache. Ass! Fitri know the ordeal I went through.

So, this was the :) moments :

Got advanced Happy Birthday Wishes from seniors during lunch yesterday.

Recieved $$ from dad yesterday.

Dion brought/bought me breakfast. But I came to school late so the noodles were consumed during recess.

Got birthday wishes from, Dalia, Nadiah, Dina and Putri.

Got a peck on the cheek by Aryanty.

Got birthday wishes from, Mun, Haziq, Firdani, +++

Dalia and Nadiah broke the Surprise when I told them I was going off... but I wasn't told what it was.

Stayed at the Void deck and waited for Syafiq and Putri.

CUPCAKES FOR MY BIRTHDAY! THANK YOU SYAFIQ, DALIA, NADIAH, DINA, PUTRI FOR THAT SURPRISE. NICE CUPCAKES SYAFIQ!

Then, off to BPP to buy Nanaa's "stuff". Haha.

SAW NINI AND EZREEN! GOD! such a great birthday present cause I've been telling Nini tht I miss her and Ezreen. It was like we planned to meet.

Walked home, and Dalia kept laughing about burping and fart-ing at the same time.

Somehow, I cracked a joke tht i don't really get myself but they were laughing. I think they were just acting tht it was funny. Ishh...

My Honeydew Sago finished just before I reached my blog of flats, but I was still craving for more, so i went to Sweetalk over at Bangkit. The same drink costs 5o cents more and less tasty than the one sold at BPP and other places.

i nearly got hit by a car by the way, while crossing the road. Man, I would have died but it was my birthday so.... death can wait. if i died on this day.... i would have been exactly 15 years of age. The car was moving behind. It so unbelievable that he did not see me by his rearview mirror and just kept moving backwards.

reach home...

Facebook was flooded by Birthday wishes!

OH GOSH! THANK YOU ALL! I THOUGHT BEING 15 WAS A DREADFUL THING UNTIL I ACTUALLY EXPERIENCE THE DAY ITSELF. THANK YOU BABES AND DUDES FOR ALL UR WISHES.

Today was a good day! Thank you.

2010-01-19T22:28:00.001+08:00